soooo, its like 3 am . and I've been thinking , thinking , and thinking . it just got stuck in my head. and i dunno who to trust and tell everything bout it . so i'll just compile in my blog instead .

1st problem , i have this huge time crush on this girl. and somehow i was convinced by my friend that this is not like just stupid come and go feeling . its like an eternally feeling . so i man up and tell her bout it . as far as it goes . there was nothing magic . just friend thing happened . and somehow i get all crazy bout it . so i made a new decision either to go up straight against her bout everything or just chicken out and wait like a crazy person . i did say i wait but it doesn't mean i don't want any answer . hmmm. crazy thoughts about me . for now . but i put my faith in her cause i know she's worth waiting and i want her to be my last girl in my life . no other girl in this world can change that :)

my 2nd problem is , i didn't study that much since my second semester starts. all i can think was rugby and then her , and then futsal . well , i've escaping class for rugby and futsal . i just afraid that i'll get dismiss due to the hatred that kept by my lecturers. but i did study extra hard for my finals . i just afraid that my carry marks wont support my final examination marks. hmmmm

and my last problem is bout my friend , i dunno who to trust anymore . since my trust so easily been thrown away like that . somehow my only friends left is her , my kakak angkat and my cousins . only to them i can tell bout everything , well except to her cause i don't want her to worry bout me since she has so much to worry already . and i did noticed that she regretted bout knowing how i feel . well im not sure bout it . just waiting for her to be ready to hear my questions...

i know this post wont be read by anybody.. cause a guy's blog wont get read unless he's extremely hot or undeniable famous..i dont get people this day . why wanna go for famous person? then all the un-famous person will get damned and stuck . and they will eventually become bad and unpleasing people . i said this out cause i've been there and where did it get me . unpleasure, suck, insecure, and condemn . but i already get thru the rough phase . now i'm dealing with problems everyday . i get use to it already so don't mind me :) i'm all good .

so i think thats all for now . feeling much better . but i actually need someone who really care and want to help me out with this , if someone out there can help me . get my fb link in my page and inbox me :) i'll be glad you actually care:)