soooo, its like 3 am . and I've been thinking , thinking , and thinking . it just got stuck in my head. and i dunno who to trust and tell everything bout it . so i'll just compile in my blog instead .

1st problem , i have this huge time crush on this girl. and somehow i was convinced by my friend that this is not like just stupid come and go feeling . its like an eternally feeling . so i man up and tell her bout it . as far as it goes . there was nothing magic . just friend thing happened . and somehow i get all crazy bout it . so i made a new decision either to go up straight against her bout everything or just chicken out and wait like a crazy person . i did say i wait but it doesn't mean i don't want any answer . hmmm. crazy thoughts about me . for now . but i put my faith in her cause i know she's worth waiting and i want her to be my last girl in my life . no other girl in this world can change that :)

my 2nd problem is , i didn't study that much since my second semester starts. all i can think was rugby and then her , and then futsal . well , i've escaping class for rugby and futsal . i just afraid that i'll get dismiss due to the hatred that kept by my lecturers. but i did study extra hard for my finals . i just afraid that my carry marks wont support my final examination marks. hmmmm

and my last problem is bout my friend , i dunno who to trust anymore . since my trust so easily been thrown away like that . somehow my only friends left is her , my kakak angkat and my cousins . only to them i can tell bout everything , well except to her cause i don't want her to worry bout me since she has so much to worry already . and i did noticed that she regretted bout knowing how i feel . well im not sure bout it . just waiting for her to be ready to hear my questions...

i know this post wont be read by anybody.. cause a guy's blog wont get read unless he's extremely hot or undeniable famous..i dont get people this day . why wanna go for famous person? then all the un-famous person will get damned and stuck . and they will eventually become bad and unpleasing people . i said this out cause i've been there and where did it get me . unpleasure, suck, insecure, and condemn . but i already get thru the rough phase . now i'm dealing with problems everyday . i get use to it already so don't mind me :) i'm all good .

so i think thats all for now . feeling much better . but i actually need someone who really care and want to help me out with this , if someone out there can help me . get my fb link in my page and inbox me :) i'll be glad you actually care:)

i finished up my paper last monday . and i feel good bout it . but, i dunno . there's something in me just not right . i can fell that something extremely wrong . haihh. bad feeling !

so i'll be back on 1st april :) but im not excited bout it . WHYYY ? oh my god . i sound like im not a sabahan . and that's sucks ! i really confused with my self lately . even when im typing this piece now . and i really in love with her . but i dont have the guts to really confront her . i wanted to be on my knee and ask her to be my girlfriend . but that is just my imagination on how i wanna do it lah . but suddenly im feeling not sure and insecure . well its all of the sudden lah . pfft . am i that stupid , that blind just to see how much she really care and love for me ? why cant i see that ! maybe because i dont wanna jump into conclusion yet . cause im practically not even ready to have a partner with me now . but then why do i like her and willingly to sacrifice everything for her ? I AM REALLY CONFUSE WITH MYSELF !!

pheww what a day today . i finished my mini project in time and now waiting for my friend to finish up the presentation and present it to the whole class xD

and im having lack of sleeping since then . tsk tsk tsk . shame on me . and for tomorrow presentation im thinking of wearing my faculty jacket with a tie . HAHA why must everything with a tie oh . ughhh . well whatever la . since tmro is my last class for my semester 2 in here . update more later . cheers !