" Love isn't about trust and feelings , its about how you can accept your partner flaws and their other side " 

this past few days i've been thinking bout nina mariyah :) cause she's the girl of my life . but am i good enough for her ? what am i to her ? questioning myself about it day by dayyyy . and what does she mean by ' you can always text other girls' haihhhh . have to hardened my heart to not get broken easily againnn .

have a pleasant day everyone XO!

im weak , insecure and sad . lately my mood just on rage . and i cant control myself . ysterday i shout at my mum for some stupid things . im losing myself noww . ughh

"If loving becomes painful then its not love anymore. Then its time to let go. Remember that: love is kind & just"

so i decided to hold back my feelings to nina . since all i do is pressuring her with her life . then if we were meant to be . it will eventually happened between us . and now i feel distance with nina . its just the nice timing for me to step out slowly . she eventually wont notice my absence . and im try my veryyyy hard to resist the temptation to text you :) like the quotes say

"As a part of you has grown in me,Together forever we shall be, Never mind the distance because all u need is patience"

*nina pnjam your pict XD*

everybody calling me sparks now -.- and i hate that . im not sparks . im his older brother , rafiq . please take note everybody. maybe because im getting smaller people thinks im sparks . pfft .

soo , the heartache still going . and i cant handle it anymore . how i wish you are mine . i wont afraid on losing you . cause i dont wanna lose you :') knowing you for more than 3 months now . and during this 3 months i sometimes cant stand your perangai . but somehow i still wanna stay . but nevermind

i notice keep on talking bout this girl only . anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy , all the rugby tournament had been cancelled for this month . and not sure bout next month and its not fair ! when im in sarawak they will be tonnes of tournament . and if im in kk . no games at all . just training , training and training . pfft . and im getting tired with rugby . its like i

m missing out the passion already . but my goal on reaching as an international player still stand lah . cant skip that dream yet XD but if i wanna reach my goal . i must have the ru

gby passion again . but howw ?

MISS THIS MOMENT !

this was the moment where i get to hold an international trophy . but that time we were only playing in labuan , but still a great tournament :)

i was on my way to sleep and i cant because of what happened tday :')

first was for the first time of my life la salle won the International Understanding day . interact club have made a job well done tday *claps*

secondly , most importantly i think . i've been ditched 3 times in one day . quite an achievement XD so sad my life . but what to do . life bro, life :) tried to have conversation with her today. she'll give a good excuse . and i had no choice just to carry on with my day . i didnt had the chance to say she looks beautiful tday . my heart skips a beat just now but i aint suppose to be treated that way . but then again we both just friend and not more than that . for me its already more than friend . for her , im not sure :') well life has to move on man

apart of this , one of my rugby club members nephew went to icu . and she is my friend also , deena hasny . hope she'll get well soon ! stay strong sistah !

thats all . im feeling much better now :)

so this is where i go when i get nothing from you :( i'll question myself to solve the question in you . and i'll be disappointed if i dont know a thing and cant help u at all . hmmm

" A gemini will never leave you if they think you are a puzzle and then they will spend time solving your puzzling mind."

sometime i over-do things . and sometime i dont care ppl around me . but i care bout you more than i care bout anybody . even myself ba . the every moment you're alone . i wanna be there . if u jalan kaki from school to KK . i'll walk to your school and walk to kk again with u . but jyeah . i dunno laa . i dont know what else i can do to make you happy . in that case , i'll find any way that possible to make u happy

that's all for tonight .

wassuppp !

first of all im proud with my junior for winning the MSSD trophy after i dunno how many years ! and its a great feeling to watched them strive that day :) eventho we failed the last time but as a supporter we didnt fail ;p hahaha

i have nothing interesting to blog but i wanted to blog also . crazy -.- hahahahaha . however , i gave up once . i wont give up on you anymore girl :) you makes me smile non stop and laugh like a crazy person . you mean everything to me :) hope you do realize that :) i dont care la if you dont really have the same kind of feeling like me :) but i'll be by your side forever . and forever is a big thing but i know i can do it :)

thats all for now XO

i gave up ! i did . and im not proud of it ! but somehow i think its for the best :/

*the end*