whoaaaaa its been awhile since i last update. but i know there's not lot of ppl gonna read it anyway :) 

i finally accept the fact that nina and i wont work out. so i move on. move on from everything that kept me holding on for so longgg. and i think that i finally found the one that i wont ever leave. not because of the promise i made but its because im simply in love. and for that i thank you :) 

apart from that i eventually pass all my last semester subject and now i think i get a hold on all the new subject :) insyaAllah i can get the pointer i aim :) 

its been too long since i really wanna update this thing. kinda busy lately and havent get the privacy time to update :D

well since i was long away. i've learned that happiness does not come from best friend and friend but you have to actually work hard for yourself. even in your darkest time your friend can't cheer you up but you yourself have to pick yourself up and make yourself happy in any way possible. the truth is i'd been in my beyond lowest moment. shed my tears in the toilet and try to face it with talking , doing stuff and spending time with everyone. but still i didnt fell that much happy. so i calm myself, abandoning myself from everyone and picked up all the broken pieces that i forget to picked along the way to happiness. after that much hardwork i finally feel extraordinary happy. this happiness cant be describe verbally. and i know that this happiness wont last long if i dont work for it to keep it together. so no matter what happen after this. i'll be statisfy with myself and will keep on working my ass off to keep on track at the road of happiness :)

ramadhan is finally here :) im so excited . lately my college life is kinda hard. well , its hard all the time . the money , time , subject , people , and surroundings. its just like it pushing me away like you did. its so hard to concentrate nowadays with disturbance around me. its just too hard.

"because you're lying" this 3 words just lingering in my head. the most highlighted word is "LYING" you think i lied don't you ? well , why don't you explain to me bout roseanna :) seriously , you've been hanging wt her lately , and who's danial ex all saint ? seriously tell me. its either me hiding or you. i cant figure it out myself :)  let see who then shall we :) and for the record i never lie to you. i told you bout my drug addictive didn't i ? but i stop :) i really did

its been awhile since i post in this blog . there are few reasons why . but its not that important to state it anymore :) however i miss Nina a lot :( wish she knew . but i dont know whats into her lately . she kept pushing people around . how i wish i have an access to her head and answer all my question .

anyway , my season 3 of college life have already started. and its a good start so far . i hope it'll get better by time . but this season. there are few characters that has quit due to few circumstances :) thanks for lighten up my last season . hope to see you some other season perhaps :) well , in Sarawak my sports activity have been reduced due to my injuries . just pray that i'll able to start to do extensive training in short period of time .

miss them a lot ! :( 

one of the stuff in the lab i manage to do :) 

my knee which shows the ligament torn . hope i get better in 2 more weeks so i can do lots of stuff *finger cross*

i'll update more later . for now i will be extra busy with my class . to my readers , thank you so much . for starters , my blog ain't that cool like some other people . but thanks for reading . and if Nina is reading this . text me sometimes :) xo's

didnt update for a month . enjoying my holiday to the fullest . hahaha . but actually is im trying so hard to hold myself from showing how sad i am :) anyway , things had passed . well feelings may go on but memories dont . so imma hold on to that memories till you realize how serious i am over you . i've been waiting . and im gonna continue on waiting .

imma pass on that , well tmro is my season 3 in UiTM . its gonna be a really weird experience since you're not around to wake me up , be with me when im stress with my assignment and give me inspiration when i need it . oh well , i guess i have to carry on myself . gonna get much more stronger than before . i havent give up on my life . even if i did . i may not typing this :)
i dont wanna leave Sabah yet . not until i get to slap that one bitch in Kota Belud . she had made our family fall down and chaotic . aishhh . why cant you mind your own business hah bitch ! aishh . stress saya gini -.-

ANYWAY ! wishing you all SELAMAT BERPUASA :) may this year fasting month give all of you blessing :)

Assalamualaikum :)

" Love isn't about trust and feelings , its about how you can accept your partner flaws and their other side " 

this past few days i've been thinking bout nina mariyah :) cause she's the girl of my life . but am i good enough for her ? what am i to her ? questioning myself about it day by dayyyy . and what does she mean by ' you can always text other girls' haihhhh . have to hardened my heart to not get broken easily againnn .

have a pleasant day everyone XO!

im weak , insecure and sad . lately my mood just on rage . and i cant control myself . ysterday i shout at my mum for some stupid things . im losing myself noww . ughh

"If loving becomes painful then its not love anymore. Then its time to let go. Remember that: love is kind & just"

so i decided to hold back my feelings to nina . since all i do is pressuring her with her life . then if we were meant to be . it will eventually happened between us . and now i feel distance with nina . its just the nice timing for me to step out slowly . she eventually wont notice my absence . and im try my veryyyy hard to resist the temptation to text you :) like the quotes say

"As a part of you has grown in me,Together forever we shall be, Never mind the distance because all u need is patience"

*nina pnjam your pict XD*